22 days left!!

So, Linds and I have been in Texas and its been pretty awesome I must say. I never had a desire to come to Texas, but it is really cool! Everyone is so nice and they say, "HOWDY!" haha! I was talking to my grandma (Dad's mom) the other day and I was telling her, "Though this experience has been hard, I'm glad I did this." Yeah, there has been MANY frustrations, No, I probably won't do anything like this again, traveling is intense and tiring. However, God used this hard, desert-like, challenging time in my life for a awesome purpose. Ok, have you ever just felt like you are stuck? Like you almost can't breathe in a situation and you literally can't get out!? You feel just so claustrophobic in the situation you are in that you have no idea how you are going to make it? Yeah, that was me this past semester. However, all of you, and I mean this, when we are weak, God is strong! His strength works best in our weakness. Why?? Because when we are weak, we really realize how weak we are and see how powerful our God is. When we are weak, we are easily at a state where we can humble ourselves. When we come into a situation like this in our lives, its where God gets us on our knees, humbles us, and we are now at a state where we tell him, "Lord, I can't do this without you! I can't breathe, I can't go on, I just can't do this anymore...BUT with your strength, I can continue..so...HELP!!" God loves when we put ourselves in a state where we need help because He's like, "Ok, NOW can I do what I was going to do?!?" LOL. This experience has taught me so much of how God can work through me when I submit. I mean, I have been frustrated about the ministry opportunities on this job, but ya know? My friend Danielle always reminds me, "We can be Jesus without using words." That rings through my mind a lot. I really just want to encourage you all, no matter what you are going through...and I mean NO MATTER WHAT IT IS...death, divorce, relationships crumbling, loneliness, a pet dies (when Molly dies..I will be so sad..Molly is my very old dog), whatever it may be...God can and will help you! Get on your knees, and pray! Nothing is too hard for God! NOTHING! We need to trust everything that happens in our life, and I know divorce, death, is especially not easy, but He has it under control, even when we or others mess up! Jesus loves you so much! You hear me?! You are loved and cared for! And he wants the best for your life, we just have to trust, endure, persevere, and obey! Why don't you just try Jesus? It won't be easy, no, but its SO worth it! And things that are usually hard for us, ends up being worth it. Like working out, which I need to go do! Its hard, but its worth it! Run the race, guys! Seek and never stop!

Desert

So, I realized today, my time is ending here soon...30 days til this adventures of Camfel is over. Ya know, I was thinking, I would've of seen all that I have seen, all I have done, and all the struggles and lessons I learned if God did not provide me this job and take me through this journey. Its crazy how fast this whole year went. I remember training, and getting ready to go, and meeting people. Ya know guys, what we go through, really does make us stronger. We are going to make mistakes, but we learn from them, so no use in beating yourself up. Ha! I learned that one for sure. And when life is hard, and you feel claustraphobic, you feel you want to get out, you wanna quit, don't! I had so many friends, and I thank God for them, that kept encouraging me to keep going with this. I'm not going to lie, traveling all that can be fun, but it also is so hard. However, I needed to go through this. I needed to learn the things I've learned. I needed to be taught the lessons I were taught. You guys, God gave us so much potential in this life, and the key to reaching that potential is trusting Him. We can't do it alone! I have no idea how I lasted this long on this job because, I know this 2nd semester, I wanted to quit so bad, but the support I got from friends, family, and co-workers, God used them to provide support. But most importantly, He spoke to me very clearly! He got me in the desert, where there was no distractions and spoke to me. I needed to be in the desert time, because I cared way to much of what people thought of me and let their input affect my life way too much where God wasn't the number one person in that area. I just want to encourage you, if you are in or about to be in the "desert time" of life, don't be afraid, don't quit. God will give you the perseverance and the absolute strength to get through it and I can testify to this! He has to put us in those times in our life to get our attention, and if we cooperate and are obedient, we will learn SO much. God sees us in a way we could never see ourselves and we have so much potential because of Him. God wants good in our life, but in order to bring good, there will be struggles, there will be trials and storms, but the sun will shine folks! It will! There is a light after every tunnel! Trust Him, He loves you!

Seriously, just pray and trust....part 1

You guys!! Seriously!! God just totally just is amazing!! OK ok, got calm it down..whew!! So, this is the thing...Like God just totally has been rocking my world! I have been reading alot in the Old Testament and I read in Jeremiah, Joel, and Malachi! Seriously, i love that name..Malachi. Sometimes I wanna say Ma-la-chee!! haha! Its more fun that way. Anyways, Anyways, this might be short because honestly the things I wanna say, I can't say right now until I am given permission but the thing is just when I have been feeling so weak, like I can't go on, like I feel so trapped, Jesus pulled through! Dude, the thing is, I know I hear from my Savior! He speaks to us if you are willing to listen. A couple weeks back, I went to hear this guy speak. His name was Tommy..Tommy..umm..I can't remember his last name but he is the lead vocalist for this Christian Screamo band. I don't listen to Screamo music but dude, seriously this guy was SO on fire for Jesus and he said something along the lines of we all can hear from God. We can! And often we pull the crap, "Oh this is probably me" or "I don't if this is me...but" If it lines up with God's truth, if its not speaking of doing sin, its most likely God. I know for me, like there could be 2 choices, and none of them or bad choices but I'm like..uhh...uhh!! and I'm so afraid of making the bad choice, but when we put God first, when we release our will and ask for His, and we surrender, lay ourselves down, we won't pick the wrong one! He never misleads us! He leads!! We just have to surrender what we want, and focus on what we want! I think I finally understood that aspect ya know? UGH! JESUS IS SO AMAZING! He's so real guys!! His love is SO real! Ok, part 2 of this...I can reveal everything, but right now I can't! but there's a lil word for ya! LOVE YOU AND JESUS LOVES YOU SO FREAKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!