Hope, strength...HELP!

So, I started a new semester with Camfel. I'm officially stationed in California. So far, Linds and I have been doing local shows in LA and maybe a lil north, lil south. I dunno guys, being at home for christmas break was SO good! I miss my friends, I miss my family, I miss home. I"m having a bit of a hard time being out here. I guess getting homesick. I sometimes just freak out thinking I might be out here til May or June and it makes me want to go home. I love Cali, don't get me wrong, but I guess I'm ready to do something new. However, God has me here. I'm to finish Camfel whenever it is done for the year/semester. I gotta have the endurance to finish but I guess today I'm feeling like, "How am I gunna do this?!?" We have 3 set-ups today and tomorrow. The thing is though, I don't need to know how to do this because He is doing it for me. So far, Linds and I have been getting everything up in like 30 minutes! That's like amazing! I know Linds is feeling a similar way, too but thank God we have each other! I was chatting with Jesus the other day, and He said, "Jess, I'm building you up, I'm teaching you and maturing you in endurance. You can keep going. Often you think alot of how things are going to work out, or how my visions will work out because nothing is happening with them, so you think. I have a plan and when you are obedient, you are trusting me. Just cling, know that I have a way that you may not understand right now, but you will soon. You will see how everything fits." I gotta hold on to that. Jesus is so good, ya know? I mean, why is that when we think we can't go on, we really can. Today at a school we were at this morning, we were told a middle school student committed suicide about a month ago. Thats just so sad. I don't know if he/she was bullied or what but its just sad to know someone couldn't find hope in the Lord. It really frustrates me I can not go into these schools and tell kids about Jesus. I'm giving them an idea of hope maybe, which is good, but they need to know where it comes! stupid law!! God is so real and it sucks people don't believe that! They don't know an AMAZING God that I know. People need to know that there is hope in every situation, even when it seems impossible because God makes ALL things possible! He is our rock! I really want people to know Jesus, because I have found an amazing love that nothing or no one can fulfill, so why wouldn't I want to share it. I hate that my mouth is shut sometimes about it because of what people think. I just feel a bit weak this semester, discouraged, and worn out. I do just want to go home, but God has me here! I have to remain faithful to that til its time to do the next thing! I often just want to go to Hawaii and start my "real life" there, but the thing is, I started "real life" since the day I was born, and especially experiencing the "real world" now that I graduated from college. Its up to you how you are going to choose to see things in your life. We can't let things get us down, nothing will get accomplished then. We put our hope in the Lord everyday for the tasks he has. We can do ALL things through Christ WHO strengthens us. This all goes for me too so don't think I'm just preaching to you! Live in the hope, guys! Love on Jesus!