Don't just read, DO!!

Hey guys! First off, thanks so much for reading my blogs! I hope this really encourages you guys, and the Lord speaks to you through them, and that its put to good use and bring glory to Jesus. This week has been super tiring. Do you ever have those weeks where you just wanna sleep? That's like all you wanna do? I'm sure you have. Linds and I have been getting up like so early like 4:30-5am early. I mean, I know that might be normal for some people, but if you have a normal 8am job, I would be up by like the earliest 6:30am. Anyways, I dunno, guys..I'm just starting to really just get over this job. Besides, this job just is not challenging (like mentally and physically) and that it can be boring, I'm struggling the fact that I can't reach these kids to Jesus. I mean, I'm really starting to question why we do what we do. I mean yeah, I understand I can't say in a microphone "JESUS LOVES YOU!" nor can I even say His name, but if I feel led to say to a student while tearing down, "Jesus loves you" or if the conversation is going that way and the Lord puts it on my heart, I"m sorry but I AM NOT going to deny Christ! I'd rather get fired, then pass an opportunity of a student knowing the Lord! I guess, I"m just kind of struggling with all this. I know in a school you can't force "religion" or whatever, but if we just get in a convo, or whatever, I'm going to be obedient. I will not deny Christ. Yea, the school trusts us to come and not say anything..yeah publicly,I understand that, and I will abide by that, however, if I'm off the stage, like tearing down, and I feel led to, I will. I love Jesus so much! I am on this earth to know Him and make Him known. This is what I thought my job was about, but I haven't been being obedient to that. Jesus says, "if you deny me, I will deny you before my Father!" The thing is guys, we just don't read Scripture, we just don't "study" Scripture, we DO scripture!! Francis Chan put it this way, when we are asked to something whether at work, home, or whatever, we don't go back to that person and say, "Hey, I memorized what you said. I even did a bible study on what it would look like if I did what you said." but we don't do it. I"m pretty sure we would get fired from that job, or be in trouble. However, Jesus asks us to do things yet we just memorize it or do a study on it! We NEED TO DO IT! I'm sick of just being so scared and not doing things because of what other people will think or do! If God is for me, who can be against me? What can man do to me if I have Jesus?! We need to live out our faith, not just read about it and study it. Those are important, but living it is SO much more! We need to apply it! That's where I'm at guys. Just frustrated...but seeking the Lord and getting courage! I will live to make Him known! I may fail at times, but I have Him to keep moving me forth! LOVE JESUS!!