Direction??

So Linds and I are in Oakland,CA heading to Santa Rosa, and San Fran this week. Its pretty so far! We are across the street from the ocean. Soo pretty! :) So here's the thing guys, I have no idea sometimes what the will of God is for my life. Yeah, I know, 95% of God's will is in the Bible, true dat, but as far as what He wants me to do with my life..I have no idea. Sunday, I got a call from a Starbucks in Kauai that really is interested in hiring me, and my friend is working with a church there that they would love to have me work w/ them. What the heck? I mean, Hawaii has always been my dream to live out there and do ministry, but this to come so soon? I'm kinda scared, kinda overwelmed, and its a big step. Yeah, I know its Hawaii. Yeah, why not go after my dreams, but I mean the only thing is holding me back I think is fear. What happens if I can't make it out there? What happens if I get heart-broken? What happens if I lose my friends back home? I always wanted to do ministry in Hawaii and this is my chance! The thing is guys, I'm not saying to jump in and not think wisely about things, but why do we let fear stop us so much? Everyday, I go into these schools and I tell these kids that fear stops us from pursuing our dreams. The thing is, fear stops us from doing the will of God! Ugh, I desire so bad to just say "JESUS FREAKING LOVES YOU SO MUCH HE TOOK A HORRENDOUS PENALTY FOR YOU!!! THAT'S LOVE! YOU ARE LOVED SO FREAKING MUCH!!" but I can't! I want these kids to know where that hope comes from. Its not based off ourselves, but Jesus! I have no idea what I'm going to do after Camfel. I mean, come on, my plan was really just to come home again, just like I planned after graduating college. Did that happen? No! When I was younger,back in my girly "I love Leo DiCaprio, Josh Hartnett" days, (yeah, I was one of those...Don't Judge!) I always wanted to go to LA, to meet them! Umm..yeah I'm here now, and I honestly have no desire to meet them...well, maybe to tell them about Jesus, not to have them fall in love with me. LOL. At first I wanted to go to Hawaii, because it would be cool, but I'm just testing my heart and seeing if my heart is really in Hawaii. I always had loved it out there and saw myself there...just its scary kinda....i don't know why..i guess those questions I mentioned above. Please pray for me! I want to do the Lord's will! I only want to go if He wants me to go! I just want to Know Him and MAKE HIM KNOWN!!!