Mountains and Valleys

We often say in life that there is mountains and valleys. Sometimes we are on top of the mountain, other times we are way low in the valley. No matter what though, God is faithful in humbling us when we are on the top of the mountain and uplifting us when we are low in the valley. As it is in nature, in order to get to the top, we start in the valley...but when we climb, and we never give up, we will reach the top. Starting Camfel, I felt like I was at the top! I felt like I was on top of the mountain! God has blessed me with an awesome job, awesome friends, tour partner, a boyfriend, and income. Seriously, I thought life was going pretty well. I did miss my friends from back home, however, I felt pretty good. Then the valley hit. I broke up with the boyfriend, the job was getting harder and more frustrating, people got upset with me, and after a nice, thankful, awesome Christmas break with being reunited with my awesome friends and family, I did not want to come back. So many times Linds and I wanted to quit. We were so frustrated and just thought we had no purpose in this job. We felt left out, in useless, and just so weak, lonely. This past weekend, I thought for sure I was out. I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to leave. I wanted my friend Jeff to tell me I could quit so bad. However, Jeff was speaking, it was God. Then at church, God spoke the same thing again. He told me, "Jessie I'm breaking you to transform you! You always pray to be transformed! This time, its a big turning point!" I got this vision of that I was a lego pieces..all broken and then God rebuilding me! He said, "Jessie, I will never leave you nor forsake you! I'm with you no matter what!" In church we sang "Desert Song". I broke when in the bridge it says, "All of my life, in every season, You are still God. I have a reason to sing! I have a reason to worship!" God is God no matter what I"m going through and I have a reason to keep rejoicing! My joy is God! So then Linds and I, as a pity treat, go to Tutti Frutti (amazing AH-mazing!! Frozen yogurt place) and both belted out we could not quit. Linds's dad was used by God to speak His words in a facebook message and it was soo good! The thing is, guys, we are going to have moments of mountains and valleys. Its good to be humbled when we are on top, and be lifted up during those times, but its also good to be weak, and feel like there is nothing you can do, so that Jesus can uplift you! His power works best in our weakness! Now, Linds and I, both decided to praise Him and have a better attitude! This is a season for us, and God is transforming us and teaching us! I've learned so much about myself, relationships, and knowing Him during this job! Again, my life is to Know Him and Make Him Known! I am here to be a domino in someone's life as well..maybe a student...and I will proclaim Christ! However that looks, I will do what the Lord tells me to, to minister..even if it is asking, "Do you know Jesus?"