Praying for Boldness instead of Deliverance

I'm sure you have thought this, but have you ever thought sometimes in life that you just wish your life was perfect?? Maybe you are like me, where you try so hard to make things perfect. You maybe avoid certain situations so you won't make things rocky, or maybe you're in a situation and you are too afraid to get out because you are afraid of what may be beyond! Or maybe you think there is nothing beyond, like this is it! There's no hope! Umm..story of my life! I'm telling you, I thought Camfel was stretching..pssshhh..yeah, what was I complaining about. I love Hawaii, but God has really taken me out of my comfort zone. I always have to know what is next, whats the game plan..and God's like, "NOPE! Seek my face! I"ll be a lamp unto your feet and a light unto your path"..and lamps don't really show much of what is around you. So I don't even know what I'm stepping on. I checked out a different church today called Koala Missionary! It was soo good! Loved the people, felt like I could definitely fit in here (but just from previous rash decisions before, praying first!). One of the things we talked about today was how when our life sucks, we so want God to just get rid of it! "God, my marriage sucks right now! Get rid of the crap!" or "God, this whole situation here isn't working out, just remove me!" We scream to God, "Get ME OUT!!!" But the thing is, whatever comes our way, God knows we can handle it. We often pray for deliverance but have you thought maybe praying for boldness might be more worth it. God just doesn't always want us to runaway. Believe me, I'm still working on that one, and the whole controlling your emotions, saw some progression but still needs ALOT of work. Today at church we talked about Acts 4 and the apostles approaching situations I'm sure they wanted God to remove them. But instead they pray for boldness instead of deliverance in vs. 29, "And now, Lord, hear their threats, and GIVE US BOLDNESS in preaching your word." They weren't praying, "Ahh God these people are persecuting us, remove us and send us elsewhere." They persevered! In the previous verse it says, "But EVERYTHING they did WAS determined BEFOREHAND ACCORDING TO YOUR WILL." God knew all this was going to happen! And the same with you and me. God knew this crap that we were in was going to happen. And the thing is, He is telling us, "Beloved, my precious creature, YOU ARE DELIVERED...You're not gunna die in this situation because I have delivered you before this even happened!!" I need to remember 3 things when I face crap, 1. I'm not gunna die. 2. I'm loved by God. and 3. The power of Christ is within me. I can get through anything because of Him. God has us go through these hard, sometimes seems purposeless, confusing, frustrating times, in order that we may learn and grow. He disciplines us because He loves us. He sees what is holding us back and He says, "I"m doing this because I love you and I want you to live life to its fullest!" He wants to remove those impurities and chains that we found so comfortable. Heck yeah, its going to hurt, but if we trust what He is doing, if we just let go, and let God, and believe me, I'm still trying to figure out how to do that, and honestly, it hits me now, If I just let go, just whatever comes comes, I'm gunna take it by the horns and take it. Its like a big wave, coming right at me, and instead of keeping running from it (which eventually its gunna catch up with me) I'm gunna face it and take it...by doing a duck dive, where its I'll go through it and it will go over me, because God is holding my hand and saying, "Trust me!" and pulls me under the wave so I don't get tumbled in it. I still get tumbled in the waves sometimes, and there are many more waves to come but if I continue to grab God's hand and go through the wave, I'll get through it instead of me getting tumbled or pushing me back! And literally, when their our big waves, you have to duck dive because if you just run from it, or just stand it front of it, you'll get pumbled or pushed back..did it today..and God used that!! :)