How much longer??

Today has been kinda rough. Linds and I are in San Fran for the weekend, which is nice, but man, wanting to be home is hitting again. To be honest, I just miss my family, my friends. I miss going out with my friends on the weekends, having my own room, and just being a bit more stable. Traveling like this gets so tiring and a bit frustrating. I know God has done alot of growing and strengthening with me, but man, today, I just feel so depressed and just hopeless. I have been reading in 1 Samuel, acutally just finished the book today. I HIGHLY recommend reading this book! I believe God wanted me to read it to be encouraged by David's life. David remained faithful to God whatever the circumstance was. Poor kid, he was always traveling because he was running from Saul. David was a man after God's own heart and he did whatever the Lord wanted him to do. He would wait upon the Lord. Saul however was not. He made haste decisions based off how he saw the circumstance rather than trusting in God which then he disobeyed God so many times then would make excuses for himself. Saul made decisions off the impulses of his anxiousness and impatience rather than waiting upon God. How often do we do that? I know I've done it before! I almost did last saturday! I almost quit this job. I knew God wanted me to stay but I was so frustrated because I really wanted him to tell me it was ok to do so, but the thing is He has a plan! Thanks to Him on sunday he spoke clearly to me in the car and in church, minded 2 good friends of mine who encouraged me to stick it out. I know, its hard. We so often look at our circumstance and how hard or complicated or distraught it looks and we act off what we see, rather than just conversing with God and waiting upon Him to help us. Yes, right now, as I'm typing this, I feel distraught, hopeless, and just depressed. However, I'm trying to get myself to know that this is all gunna be worth it. Its like that song, "I don't understand Your ways, but Oh that I will give you my heart, give you all of my praise....its gunna be worth it." I'm trying to be like David, and just endure the circumstances around me because the Lord is my strength and if He brought me to this, He will get me through it! So often, and I"m one of them, we wanna skip to the next step when one step is hard. But the thing is, if we skipped to the next step instead of doing this step, we aren't prepared for the next step because the step we should take now, will prepare us for the next. Ugh, Lord please help me! Sometimes, I have no idea how I'm going to do this til the end, but I know I'm going to look back at this and Praise the Lord He has brought me through it! :)I love Jesus so much!!!