This past week was really exhausting and well, I often question myself of, "How am I gunna make it til May!" I guess it could be I"m stuck in Indiana for this whole month, however, our schedule has been pretty crazy! Its actually really cool how Lindsey and I connect as co-workers and friends. When she's frustrated, I can calm her down and when I'm frustrated, she calms me down. We both don't take those frustations to heart because we know each other's heart well enough not to take it personal. Lindsey has to be one of the most understanding people I know. This past friday I was fasting and I was tired, a bit weak (fasted since wed.evening) and ready for the weekend. When I'm frustrated, I dont like to talk much because I dont want people to think I"m mad at them and I just want to be alone, but I communicated to Lindsey I was frustrated, tired, and apologized for being not such a happy camper, lol. The cool thing was tho, when we had kids help us set up, I realize all my worries, frustrations, and cares just go away. I can just easily pour into them...its like a relaxer believe it or not! I love working with kids, I realized more. Friday, was just one of those days where, "I dont know if I can keep doing this". But when kids come, I realized alot more that my heart is towards the youth. I want to work with them..maybe not just setting up and tearing equipment down the rest of my life, but somehow work with them and minister to them the love of Jesus!
I did about a 2 and a half day fast this week and boy, did God really show me alot. I really learned what it meant to fast. Inspired by the book I was reading, now I"m done with, "Starving Jesus", I realized a fast changes your life, and a fast with no change, isn't a fast! When we fast, we our asking God to have more of Him, where we are denying ourselves and what fulfills us, like food lol, and feeding off Him! In a fast, you totally hear from God, even when I was frustrated, the Holy Spirit was speaking to me to calm it down and make sure to communicate to Lindsey. I realized a lot about how I underestimate prayer and time with God, how I just maybe do it to make sure I"m doing it rather, than real one and one time with God. Fasting does really rid of yourself because you totally leave everything behind and come before God. What John the Baptist said, "More of Him and less of me!" That's my prayer!
My friend Drew did the fast with me, so that was cool to have accountability and seeing how God was changing His life. Seems like God was bringing Him into many opportunities of boldness. The crazy thing was, this past Saturday, Drew came to visit me in downtown Indy. So, Lindsey, Drew, and me, decided we would go chill at starbucks. While walking, a young black man approaches Drew and asks for some change. None of us had change and so he asked Drew about helping him get something to eat. So Drew said about walking to starbucks where he could get the guy something to eat. The guy didn't seem like he needed someone to buy food. He was pretty well dressed. The black guy, anxious and frustrated, kept trying to get Drew alone, having Drew ask Linds and I to keep walking while Drew and him would go for a "walk". I was NOT about to leave Drew! The dude, was getting upset because Drew would not go with him. Because the guy would not leave use alone, he walked to starbucks with us. We got in there and the guy says, "Man! I don't want this food!" Drew asked the guy to leave and the guy would continue to not leave Drew alone. Thinking this bartender was a cop, I asked him to help us. He was wearing an orange shirt..wow, God sure used my dumbness for something. He said he dealt w/ this stuff all the time and had Linds and I get in line with him. Mind you, everyone is looking at the black guy and Drew in starbucks. So the bartender gets in the convo between the black guy and Drew. The black guy, is cussing out Drew and the bartender. Then starbucks baristas are about to call the cops but the guy ends up leaving, Poor Drew! He totally handled it really well and remained calm the whole time! I totally believe God used some of his fast to prepare for that! When the guy left, we prayed for him and we were all shaken up. I got a word from God that the man was full of anger and greed, and that he was trying to mug drew in order to owe a debt for someone. I prayed over this guy's anger and greed and then walking back, we prayed and made sure we were around tons of people! What an experience! We were so thankful God protected us and that we got the guy to at least come to starbucks where I met the bartender there! Thank God for Drew's attitude towards the guy and the bartender! Drew was only trying to help. We were all so thankful nothing bad happened! This past week has been pretty draining, but I"m continuing to ask God for His strength which he has been faithful in giving!
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